The Lake
Wakeboarding was by far the coolest thing that I learned to do this summer. I have always been a little bit scared of it. Maybe it was the falling down that always looked so painful! Or maybe it was the worry that I couldn't pull myself up out of the water. Maybe even still it was the fear of failing that always kept me on the sidelines. Whatever was the reason I over came it and I am really proud of myself because it didn't take long at all to get up! And what a feeling, gliding across the water. It's very empowering, even better than snowboarding. Well maybe not better they are really close but very different at the same time. On the water you are being pulled by the boat and you can take a break and just look around and enjoy nature. Of course it doesn't help that I get to wakeboard on the the most beautiful lake in the world. That I've seen...I've heard of one even better. But my lips are sealed it's my own little heaven.
I also learned how to do a front flip off the cliffs! Maybe I had to much sun that day. I never was in tumbling as a child and my family couldn't afford to send all their girls to gymnastics. So needless to say I never learned to do a flip not even a cartwheel!! I know I know what kind of childhood did I have?! (a great one by the way...) I think it is almost a natural reaction to want to flip and spin and move. I've always just had the biggest urge when I see a huge green lawn to just run and flip, just like the girls on the gymnastic teams I would watch as a little girl. They fly through the air and make it look so easy. I had enough and just did it off the front of the boat. Of course I did not spin fast enough and I did a back flop on the water. It stun like hell but then the pain was gone. Later that day we went to these cliffs and I was going to flip off the cliff. Of course once I was up there it was a little freaky. My tummy still gets a little bit flittery. But once I did it, it was great. And I did it again and again, it's almost that same kinda high you get when you workout doing something you love. I never knew that I could do that!
Maybe I am just in this place in my life where I am finally comfortable with my self and my body. Not to get confused with loving my body or really liking what it looks like but really knowing it, knowing what I can do with it. I am also very confident it my marriage and my life. I am just in a really good place right now. Maybe it's finally happening, maybe this little girl is finally becoming a women.